Posts Tagged ‘E’

A Few Friend Things

Yesterday I watched the England vs France match with a few of my friends during which we got fairly drunk (I got quite drunk) and afterwards we started playing ‘I have never’. This is kinda an easy game for me to play cos I haven’t really done anything; I could basically say “I have never done x sexual thing’ and they’d have to drink and I wouldn’t. So during the course of this my friends said that they were determined to get me laid for the first time during my 21st birthday celebrations next week – they even suggested we all get hotel rooms so we have somewhere other than home to take girls back to. It was a strange thing to suggest but I doubt it will happen anyway.

During this drinking session my friends revealed something I didn’t know about myself; apparently I’m a “touchy-feely drunk”. I knew I was a ‘huggy drunk’, but I didn’t know I was actually a bit more than huggy, but ‘touchy-feely’. According to them, once, when I was drunk when they and another one of my friends, E, was here, and I tried to touch her boobs, full-on, with-both-hands style. This doesn’t seem like something I would ever do, but I suppose drink can make people do uncharacteristic things. On a similar note, I started chatting to one of my blog followers who I’ve got to know via msn and fb on Whatsapp after all my friends had gone home, and she asked me if I was “feeling needy?”. I’m not quite sure what she meant but I took it to be negative, I dunno, like when I’m drunk I begin to crave the attention of the opposite sex, or are only interested in talking to her when I’m drunk and feeling horny or something? God knows. This morning I asked her to explain what she meant but she said she was busy and would do so later. That’ll be interesting…

As one of my friends recently broke up with his girlfriend he also suggested that we could go out ‘on the pull’ together, that I could be his ‘wingman’. It’s funny actually, since he broke up with his girlfriend he’s been really keen to meet up, socialise etc with me, much more than any of my other friends. When we were talking about the break-up he actually said he was kinda glad, cos when he looked back on their relationship he felt like he was doing all the giving and she was doing all the taking. It’s a shame about them, but it’s nice to have my friend back.

On an unrelated note, my parents are getting quite desperate about booking a summer holiday, they’re now even considering Bulgaria, since I mentioned I was looking to go with J-O a while ago.


Exercising Demons

For too long
I have cared
How you feel
How you think

Always at my shoulder
Always in the corner
Always lingering
In the back of my mind

For too long
I thought we’re close
I cannot delude
Myself any more

But from now
I will break free
From the chains
I’ve set on me

So I can feel
Well again
I can feel
Liked again

So I don’t
Look over
My shoulder
For you

I Hit Back This Time

Several times J-O has asked me about if I liked a few of my female friends (such as E and M) and has pointed out a picture on Facebook where I jokingly took a picture of M’s cleavage as part of a long-running joke in my friends group. Several times I’ve told her I don’t like them, and that this picture was simply a joke. But she kept bringing it up every so often. When she brought it up today, I decided to fight back.

I pointed out a picture on Facebook she had taken with her friends, of one of them naked on the toilet, with just his hands covering his… you know. I said that despite this, I realised it was a joke, I trusted her. I said that to her. She said it was different, but when I asked how, she said it was ‘a picture of his personality’, which I did not understand at all. I said: ‘his personality is about sitting naked on the toilet?’ She said she didn’t look at his… you know… whereas I did. I told her that it was a long-running joke, that I did not start, that I was just continuing it in fun. She accepted this, but still didn’t seem happy.

It’s just annoying, that she makes me feel bad for her thinking, unjustifiably, that I liked other girls. I was annoyed that I had to feel bad, guilty, for her thinking this, when it’s not my fault she thinks this way. It’s annoying that I trust her and she doesn’t trust me. Yes, I know, the distance means she has reason to be cautious. But I have never shown myself to be anything other that trustworthy and faithful, so that’s why I’m annoyed.

I just hope that once we meet and she realises how genuine I am, she will trust me.

Some People Are So Uptight

I’m pissed off right now. Some people are just so uptight it’s untrue. One of my friends (E) posted some pictures on Facebook from a camping trip with her family, but when I go to comment on a few of them, she quickly posted on my wall to stop. Unbelievable. I don’t understand it at all. So she gets a few email notifications from Facebook. Boo bloody hoo. It would only take 10 seconds to delete them. I’m only being friendly, being interested in what her and her family have been up to. I really have no idea what her problem is, but whatever it is, she needs to get over it.

Tipsy and Sad

I’m sad but I don’t know why. It doesn’t help that I’m a bit tipsy after some friends came over earlier and we had some drinks, watched a film and playing Rock Band and stuff. Part of this sad feeling is loneliness, I know that. The rest I can’t really put my finger on. It’s strange. Thinking this reminds me of when one of my friends left earlier, and looked like he couldn’t get out of here fast enough – he stopped playing in the middle of a song (when his dad came to pick him up) and put his shoes on as fast as lightning. And that makes me think of the fact that E decided she wasn’t going to stay over after all when she found out nobody else was staying. I mean, it’s kinda fair enough since I’m a guy and she’s a girl and I suppose it’s kinda awkward, but I would have liked her company for the night, staying up for a bit and chatting or whatever. Never mind I suppose. Arg. I wish J-O was here with me.

Looking Forward To Summer

Well, my first exam starts tomorrow and my last exam is on 4th June. It sounds like a long time, but it’s only 3 exams, 1 each week, so it’s pretty good. But I am – as you can probably tell from the title – more looking forward to the summer. 3 months and 2 weeks I have off. 3 months and 2 weeks!!! Either it is going to be great, or it is going to be very boring. I’m going to try my hardest to make it exciting.

I’ll try and make sure me and my friends are doing something cool at least once a week, be it having a party or doing something a little more restrained but still fun. What I’d really like to do is see a lot more of A, E, J and M, since they all live pretty close – within bike-riding distance – to me. The only trouble is that I don’t want to impose on them. I’ll have to talk to them and see what I can come up with. Wish me luck!

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A Bit Of A Disastrous Trip

Today (well, yesterday now, if you’re being pedantic) I went to London with E to go to a gig at this place called the Water Rats. We went to see this band that one of my friend’s is in. I left Southampton at 2:30 and met E on the train, and we got into London Victoria at about 5. The gig started at 6, so we first went to McDonalds, although E didn’t eat anything. Slowly we trudged over to the tube and got the Underground to King’s Cross.

We got to the gig at 6 and they started playing at 6:30. They were really good, but since they were the first band on and hadn’t played outside Hampshire (although one of their songs got played on 6 Music) it was only me, E, two other fans how had travelled up from Southampton, and the lead singer’s parents. That was rather disheartening for them, and on top of that they made a loss of £200 or so because they bought a load of tickets to sell but didn’t manage to shift many. They finished at 7. They dropped off their stuff and said they’d be back, and we thought they’d stay a while. But when they came back they said they were tired at that they were off – this was at 7:30. The rest of us hung around for a bit, as the place filled up, but left by about 7:15.

From there we went back to Victoria and then home, getting back at 11. A lot of hours and a fair bit of money (the train ticket cost £30) was wasted on that trip, in many ways. However, because of the lack of people e.t.c I didn’t like to leave E going all the way to London and back on her own, and I was glad to encourage the guys by being another person there watching them. I know one person doesn’t make much difference, but with only 6 people watching, I think it would have done. I felt really sorry for them, as they’re a great band and played really well. At least they’re getting themselves out there though.

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